Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Didn't blog in a long time. Reading back my previous entries, I am kinda glad that they are there as memories, be it good or bad. I think it's time for me to revamp my blog after all the project submissions.
Yes, this time round it is a very long rant again. It is killing me that all the emo stuff are bombarding me yet again. JCG, the source of all my happiness and sadness.
As usual, all the things I am going to mention are all my personal opinions. Not happy? Don't read. I don't need you to interfere with my current take on situations.
Being a person who is born so sensitive, I have strong and special feelings towards many various stuff. Let say, if someone feels sad about a certain incident, I might in fact feel 10 times worse due to my different views and such.
A lot of people are creating a very nice facade.
Many many others don't know but I do. I would wonder why the heck do I know? Why, why me? Why do I ended up being the one to notice these slow and minimal yet stacking problems?
In the end I can't say anything. I can't even do anything that I think I can and I should, in order to ease the pain. Sometimes I think that it is just great to be a thick-skinned idiot cause you'd be able to show everything out instead of having to put up the shield.
Some people are selfish. Some people are scheming. Some people categorize. Some people label.
So do we really know the truth? Do we really understand how everyone truly feels. I just wish I can rip everyone's masks out so I can finally take mine out too. At times, I feel disgusted, both of others and myself.
Really, in the first place, all the political shit stems from all these simple deceptions. If everyone is somehow more open-minded and truthful to their ownself
and others, be it the 'victims', 'murderers', 'judges' or 'bystanders', all the issues would not happen.
Frankly to say with all my years of experience, it is impossible. It just becomes a repetition pattern which I could deem it to be like a ritual, sacrificial one.
Everyone says JCG is like a family. In a way it is, but it is something you have to work
for. There is no such thing as not needed, however you realize even if you are gone, the gap will slowly be filled. Simply to put, it doesn't really matters, life goes on. A lot of people didn't get this (which I would say it is seriously a bliss) until something critical happen to them (which I don't hope so).
Those who think status are something stressful and without benefits, you are so wrong
. Treasure it, as it is something which ensures your position as a roleholder (Read Heart no Kuni no Alice manga and you'll understand lol *gets shot for randomness*)
Sounds depressing huh? I can assure you that these are nothing compare to what I have to comprehen and feeling now. I am somehow scare of the future.
Maybe if I was a guy, I wouldn't have to face all these. Perhaps my life would be easier? Perhaps I would have join a sporty CCA? Perhaps all things would flow differently.
Will there be a person who truly understands?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Sept was a half fruitful month haha.
Mid Sept, I was working at Comex show, gotta say it's damn toughhhhhhh. It had been a very good experience but I don't think I'll do this type of jobs anymore. It can kill seriously ;O; Was working on my Kokonoe (Blazblue) also. But fall sick like shit and cannot finish ._.
I spent the early and last weeks of the month chionging manga.
I like Akuma to Love Song, The Bride of the Water God, Flat and Reimei no Arcana
a lot!! It doesn't mean I didn't enjoy the rest heh~ Think I might be cosplaying for WH too \o/
Most of 'em are readable on MangaFox.
Dunno why I suddenly find myself watching the Zanpakuto arc of Bleach after dropping it so long. Think I find it interesting to see the human forms haha!
I started watching Hetalia
after being influenced by Simp too 8D! Chibitalia <33
And I've bought a couple of stuff this month and some of them arrived!! *can't wait to open my parcel* o(〃＾▽＾〃)o
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
The Five Love Languages --
According to Dr. Gary Chapman unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others. Dr. Chapman's divides love languages into five categories: Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Receiving Gifts, Acts of Service, and Physical Touch.
2) Alt link: http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp
I feel loved when...
The Five Love Languages
My Primary Love Language is Words of AffirmationMy Detailed Results:
Words of Affirmation: 10
Quality Time: 9
Acts of Service: 7
Receiving Gifts: 3
Physical Touch: 1
About this quiz
Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
As always, life sucks. I went out everyday this week till my pocket OTL|| Anyway isn't feeling happier too.
Been watching Oretachi wa Tenshi da! NO ANGEL NO LUCK.
on Tudou..cause it has KENKEN LOL. This show is random, lame, goofy and funny. Each episode literally makes me go wth xD
Detective comedy centered around 4 young sleuths known as the "Angels."
# Jyoji Shibue - CAP
# Kenta Kamakari - DARTS <3
# Ray Fujita - NAVI
# Shoma Yamamoto - JUN
Now... pic spam of KENKEN ヽ(≧▽≦)ﾉ
Adorable, ain't it? XDDD